A Merry Xmas

The Beauty Potion

this story is fragmented and strange but somehow that was how i felt when i wrote it.

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ART JOURNALS

i realized i've not drawn or such for a long time. all i had been doing was felt sewing. so now i've started an art journal. it is basically an old ring binded book about A5 but smaller with paper inserts made from old scraps. upcycle people! so i just glue or collage them and punch holes into them.

cataloguing my random thoughts with drawings and chunks of indecipherable handwriting. one day i might scan it all up but blank out the more sensitive stuff. hehh.

ok. off to cook dinner. instant noodles. yaye. not proud of my unhealthy diet but ugh.

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GLASS BOTTLE

the thought of living in a glass bottle.

there is quite a bit on my mind these days. the dynamics of relationships, the stress from work, the returns on efforts.

it is week 13 and yet i am still rushing to meet deadlines. and these modules with crazy shit load of assignments end up with still kind of a large percentage for finals. after rushing to complete my assignments, normally i am too brain dead to really continue absorbing/revision. so i end up here typing rubbish or checking emails for work.

then again, i am too brain dead to reply coherently so i shall leave it tomorrow.

making mistakes at work now is just uncalled for. and reflects horridly too.

anyhows, a random thought occurred to me yesterday.

i feel like i am living in this glass bottle. sure it is not all smooth sailing, but my problems are not that huge. although i whine like fuck, i know that they are manageable and dude, seriously they are not that huge a deal. plus i have friends who put up with all my shit. hahaha. so while i am living a protected life, i know just how easily it can be smashed. this was always in the back of my head, but it keeps hounding me rather badly these few days.

i have this gut feeling that something catastrophic will happen soon and shatter this bottle. and i am not sure if i can deal with it. it is like peace waiting to be broken.

this song makes me feel all nuah.

shall camp even more productively at com tomorrow. shockingly, it HAD been productive in the basement. managed to finish my cs2105 assignment. with help from the manchurian prince. hahaha. i attribute the productiveness to the fact that there is less human traffic milling pass so less distractions?

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ART PURGE 6

houses. i've always been fascinated by cute houses on hills. though i've never really seen any before since the area i stay in comprises of 99% cookie cutter high rises.

in my head, houses are like this. hehh. done purely in photoshop with my mouse.

semi-colored.

when you colored things in any color you wanted and not what they are. i remembered that when i was a kid i used to have these black and white photocopies of a same parrot which i will color many times in different colors. hahaha.

an attempt at quick sketching "real" houses. but i got this reference image off google. the proportions are off though. the amount of details in houses. i've never noticed them till now.

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ART PURGE 3

this blog is a little dead for this few weeks cause im currently working on 3 academic projects and 1 rather time-consuming personal one. and the lack of a tablet has greatly hampered my ability to work sooooo...do keep a lookout for my new project (:

the framed up pica-chu with a flower from Sheares Production. drawing for others, quite a first and i do like it a lot. which leads me onto my OTHER personal project. but that is scheduled only for the 3 months holidays.

childhood with blocks as houses and a robot destroyer.

drawing rocks from my geography class. it is quite interesting. i never noticed rocks could look so different. which is why i suck at drawing certain things cause im not observant enough. meh. (￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ shall try to be more observant now. not just of good looking people. hahaha. even rocks.

rocks, ill pay you attention now.

my mood these days. tempted to do a lot, but resisting even more. but usually i cave in. hahahaha. its like, if you don't do it, you'll regret it, thinking WHAT-IF. but the sad part is, you'll never know. if you tried, even if there's a 99% chance of you looking stupid and going #ohgodwhy.jpg, at least you tried, cause you wont EVER EVER EVER know what will happen if you didn't. #actlikeaphilosopher.

maybe i'm just justifying my own bad choices. hahaha. (￣(ｴ)￣)ﾉ

the balance of life. inorganic, organic, good, bad, flight, falling. i lost it for awhile. now i'm trying to regain it.

ohkay, end of my philosoraptor rant.

sent kevin off for SEP. ahhh. we will miss you at level 5 short wing.!!!

and then left for glen's 21st. ahhh. everyone is turning 21 soon.

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